The Hope. :: Part 5.

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Today's part of the story is what I am currently going through.   It's the end of sorts...but also a beginning.

2 weeks ago after several really rough weeks I spent the weekend quietly in some ways yet it was busy.  Through it all a song lyric came to mind often.  Hold on to hope, love.  

The more I thought about it the more I realized it was something I needed to do.

To just hold on to hope.  To choose every single day to hope.

I was not sure it would make a difference... but it has.

So. Much.

As I have processed through some thing I have realized something...

There is beautiful hope in brokenness.

I have been broken and laid bare this year.  Even experiencing the beauty of freedom... there is still brokenness.  Yet there.  In my brokenness is where I see Him the most.

That's the thing about being broken and laid bare. In all those pieces you can truly see the lies, the walls, every single hurt, all the things that and in seeing it for what it truly is... You see Him.  The One ready to start picking up those pieces and putting them back together.

Oh not the same as it was.

Because once you've been broken the pieces no longer fit together as they once did. He takes each piece walks through that brokenness with you and places it back in you.   It's different.

But then again an encounter with Him should never leave us the same.

We are made new in our brokenness.  

Once we encounter Him.... our brokenness becomes something more.

Something He can use.

And He does.

Hope in my brokenness.  

Hope has helped me accept the brokenness, the numbness, the pain, and the freedom.

Hope is what I choose.  Sometimes it is a daily choice.  A choice that some days I have to make over and over and over.

But it has been so worth it.

So if you are struggling today...

Hold on to hope, love.

 

Comments

[Kimby]

Christy, I can't remember if I shared this link with you before, but it's such a beautiful song and perfect for your thoughts on brokenness. Take care, my beautiful friend! http://www.gwensmith.net/brokenintobeautiful/

[Lauren McMullen]

Absolutely beautiful. Thank you so much for your courage and your willingness to share this with us. Your story touches home and I am thankful that you are allowing the Lord to use you in ways to touch others. I, too, am coming out of brokenness - feeling lost, hopeless, and in despair - only to realize that it is His grace that was all I needed all along. I hope and pray that more are reading your blog right now and feeling the freedom that comes with holding on to hope. In love,
LM

[K]

We are made new in our brokenness.

To me, that is the most beautiful part of knowing Him as ours.

What a powerful week of words here. Reminding myself to hold onto hope.

[Ginger]

Hope is what you choose. Love. Just love. I am so very thankful for your open heart and faith filled message that reminds me where I am headed.