Terrified Excitement and Prayer.

First, I just want to say thank you so much for your kind words through comments and emails last week as I shared my story. You encouraged my heart so and made me feel loved. <3

So now you know I am choosing hope.

In many ways that means choosing to trust Him. No matter what.

It's been hard because of many things but mostly because of not being able to find a job.

I have been looking for a part time job to help me out until I can find a full time job.

I have applied to most every where local to no avail.

At the same time I have put a great deal of work into applying for jobs as a residence director at a college. College students are some of my favorite people and I feel like I could really do well in the position.

Alas... most of the doors are shutting there.

At times it's hard, this not knowing what I want to do...what is that next step.

Last weekend we had a small family get together with some family...and a chance to catch up and say goodbye to my cousin Jenn and her husband Chris. (They left for Africa again yesterday on a trip with their non-profit Retouch. You should definitely check out their awesome ministry!)

While we chatted they mentioned teaching English in Asia.

My Aunt Kim was like you should do it.

I thought for a few moments and the conversation moved on.

I spent a great deal of last week thinking about it and praying about it.

Doing some research I found that South Korea is one of the best places to teach for a year (or more). The research fascinated me and I found myself reading all I could about Korea.

I decided to take a step of faith.

I applied to a recruiter to teach English in South Korea.

Here is what I think....

A step of faith is just that, a step. It's saying you know what.... I am going to take a risk and see what happens.

So you take that step.... and you seek His Face.

I have no idea what will happen in the coming weeks and months...if I will get a job here, or in another city (I applied to jobs in several different cities!), or even another country.

However I trust that He is going to guide my steps and open doors and close doors and I am going to see the path He has laid before me the very moment He wants me to see it.

I am terrified.

I am excited!

Ahh...terrified excitement. It's such a fun place to be.

A place that I trust is fully HIM.

Following Him is not meant to be easy...it's messy and dirty and terrifying. He asks for hard things. His timing is different from mine.

Yet at the same time knowing He is going to lead me on the adventure of a lifetime....just because I am is and He is mine...is exciting and so much more than I can imagine.

Over the next few months I would covet your prayers. That I would continue to seek His face and that I would trust Him and know He has a plan...and that my footsteps would follow His.

And now...it's your turn.

I would adore praying for YOU.

So today... How can I pray for you?

You can leave a comment here or email me (crittyjoyblog at gmail dot com) if it's something you don't want to share in a comment.

I am going to set time aside this week to carry you to His throne and lay you at His feet and let Him love on you as only He can.

5 Comments

Christy, I am praying for you and I thank you for offering to pray for me! (Special request for my "Dads" -- my father-in-law had a stroke but is recovering MIRACULOUSLY and my Dad is dealing with skin cancer.) Terrified excitement IS a fun place to be because it's so full of possibilities. Love you!

Posted by: Kimby | Thursday, May 17, 2012 at 09:09 AM

So excited for you. :)

I shall email you! ♥

Posted by: K | Monday, May 07, 2012 at 03:27 PM

Christy! So excited to see how the Lord will lead as you step out of your comfort zone and choose His best!
I have friends who spent a year teaching English in Korea and are recently back; if you'd like me to connect you with them, send me an email! Love to help in addition to pray for you.

Posted by: Lisa | Monday, May 07, 2012 at 01:52 PM