Fertile Soil.

When boredom strikes I often organize something on my computer...or look for interesting quotes...or spend lots of time on pinterest ;)  This weekend while doing some organizing...I ran across this quote...that seemed to shout at me....

To be completely honest...last weekend I almost called this ole bloggy quits.  I was so close to taking it offline and letting this part of my life go.

After a week of thinking, seeking, and praying...I know that I cannot let it go...but I also cannot let it be the same.  For a while I think....I have not been writing because I want to but because I felt I had to...that content had to be here every day. To be honest I do love some of the posts I have written but some of them were mind posts and not heart posts.

You see I want this blog to be about heart posts.

Tonight I created for the first time in a month.  Because I wanted....needed too.  I wanted to get that quote above onto something creative.  That made me happy.

I realized tonight that I had sucked up all the nutrients from my soil....and it needed to be fertilized again.  I think that is what happens when you don't create from your heart.  It is what happens when you don't let things change or let them go.

I have to keep turning those pages of my story... I can't keep staying on the same page and waiting for something different. 

That has been some of what this month of seeking, reflection, prayer, and thinking has been about.

 

So what does that mean for CJ blog?

 

It means....  As of Late continues once a month.  I love that meme and that Kristen entrusted it to me makes me love it more.  I love visiting y'all each month and seeing what is going on in your lives.

It means heart posts. Writing is one of my favorite things to do.  Truthfully it is a passion of my heart.

It still means my randomness.... and my creative things spilling out here.

It does mean a change in when and how I post.  I am just going to enjoy this blog and all that comes from it.  If I only do 1 post a week...I am okay with that because you are going to get the best my heart has to offer.  And some weeks you might get 5 posts.  But don't expect that to happen often. ;)

 

I still want to journey here with you... it is just going to look different.

I want things to keep being born in me...and sometimes that means changes and letting things we once knew go.

I also so want to tell you what the last few weeks have held...but I am holding some of it close to my heart and at some point.... may share with you.  Suffice it to say I still find God surprising and that I am looking forward to changes that will come.

 

So I am turning a page on CJ blog...I hope you will stay around and see what happens!

 

Now I must know....what has been going on with you dear ones?  Good things, bad things, fun and silly things, serious and sad things......I really do want to know.

 

Much love,

Comments

[Kimby]

Christy, this is fantastic and forward-moving! Follow your heart and the words will follow.

[Lea]

Christy, I just happened by from someone else's blog that had participated in As Of Lately. What a precious entry you did today and I so admire your following of the Spirit's leading in your life. Blogging can get to be all consuming and even though I usually on blog 3X a week, it can still bear on my mind way too much. I look forward to checking in with you and hearing about your journey through life. Blessings to you!

[Laurie]

Love the quote!! It's strange, but it seems to go with what I'm going through right now.

I'm glad you aren't going to take this lovely blog away, b/c to me it means a lot. I may not comment a lot, but don't think I don't read every post b/c I do. :)

xo

[Amanda]

I can really relate to this (hence my 6 month bloggy break, ha!) although I don't have the luxury of writing a lot of deep heart posts, it helped me to take time to find a focus, I guess.

I'll be here, belatedly checking in as always :) I love that quote, btw. It's amazing. Reminds me of something I heard last night that I CANNOT get out of my head, so I posted it up on my wall, ha! I watched Eat, Pray, Love on Netflix (totally breaking my rule about reading the book first) and I wasn't sure what to expect as I heard quite extreme reviews, either love or hate. Well, I quite enjoyed it and something Elizabeth Gilbert says while she was in Rome totally spoke to me.

"Ruin is a gift. Ruin is the road to transformation." The more I ponder that, the more I think it is true.

[Tiffini]

I go through much of the same thing Cristy. I understand what your saying between mind post and heart post. I can tell the difference in mine as well
I am glad your not quitting..just write when your heart says to. I will still be around to see what changes you are going through after you turn the pages:)
big hugs
xo

[kendal]

glad you didn't call it quits....your title is apropos for me - i'm gardening lately! look for a sickening amount of coverage ofthis mundane topic.

[Joanne Sher]

So glad you're following where you are being led. And I LOVE the quote. Continuing to pray for ya, sweet Christy. My biggest news (which you may or may not already know)is that I got a SUPER encouraging rejection from an agent on my nonfiction and have since sent it back out to more. Waiting for God's timing.

[Isunji]

This is sooo good. I don't have the words to say what I want to say right this minute, but I know you know. ;o) <3

[Kristen]

You are becoming. I'm just happy to see it unfold. <3

You do what is best for you. In this moment.

[Brooke]

Looking forward to walking through this change with you.

[kara]

I think this is a good thing, a really good thing. I always love hearing what's on your heart, BT.

Lately I've been thinking about my life and where I want it to go (and I guess that blogging goes along with it). I do this often around my birthday but this time I'm really trying to think in terms of the practical walking out of how to get to where I want to be, while still being okay with who I am now. Which seems like quite the conundrum, actually. I guess I feel like I've wasted so much time in these first 34 years that I hope the next 35 or 40 aren't spent the same way.