Sometimes I Wonder.

I wonder what life would be like if we had not moved all those years ago.  If we had stayed in that other town.  Would I have found Jesus?  Would I have experienced getting to know my amazing grandparents?  Would I have excelled in school as I did here?  

I wonder what it would have been like to finish my degree at VSU and not at TFC.  Would I have a wonderful job like I do now?  Would I know Christ?  Would I still be close to my Mum?  Would I be blessed with some of the most amazing friends a girl could ask for?

I wonder what it would be like if I had continued to walk away from Christ and be bitter toward God?  Would I still be here?  Would I have the people I have in my life now?  Would my passions and desires be the same as they are now?

I wonder what it would be like to be married?  Would I still be married?  Would I trust him?  Would I know Christ was the center? Would my parent's divorce have destroyed what I had once though was a marriage?

I wonder about the future.  Where will I be in 5 years?  What will I be doing?  Will I be married, a mom? Where will I be in 10 years? 20? 30?

I cannot help but ponder Jeremiah 29:11-14...it has been on my mind a great deal lately.

 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.  Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.  I will be found by you," declares the LORD, "and will bring you back from captivity.  I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you," declares the LORD, "and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile."

And I cannot help but think these verses have been my life.

Even in thinking He had plans to harm me, He truly wanted me to prosper.  He has always wanted to give me a hope and a future.  When I called His name and began to seek Him again, I found Him.  Right where He had always been.  He brought me back from the captivity and exile of this world and gave me HOPE.

So while I may wonder sometimes, I know, without one teeny tiny doubt, that His plan, it is perfect.  And He is my Hope, He is my future.

I am so blessed to be His Daughter.

Comments

[Andrea]

I love this post, Christy. I often wonder many of the same things, if certain things in my life hadn't happened, where would I be now. I love it when He reminds me of the beauty He has made out of the lowest times of my life.

[Kristen {dancing in the margins}]

Beautiful. Sometimes I wonder, too and then I rest in the knowledge that He knew all along. He's got this life under control, in His palm and in His plan.