The One about Nashville

I have had a lot of time to think this week. And I have decided I am moving to Nashville. When? No Clue! How? No Clue! Where? Again, no clue!

Why? Well...

I have had some time this week to catch up on some amazing things going on at Crosspoint Church. I found out about the church a few months ago when the pastor, Pete Wilson stumbled on a post of mine and we had a little email conversation...and I started reading his blog. He is authentic and my resepect for him has risen this week, especially after this post. I am beginning to see how important it is for a church to deal with the hard stuff, and deal with it up front.
I am struggling to find a church right now that I am at home at. I live in a small town which to me makes it a little more difficult to find an authentic church.

And then there are events like this:
A Book Tasting How much fun would this be :) I already have Randy's book. It is beautiful! I am blessed enough to have a watercolor by Randy and a print from the book. I am working on framing them and cannot wait to display them :)

I love the cultural aspect of Nashville. The music, the art.... I love that there is church that I could get involved in.... and I love the idea of a "big" city...

Of course I am being a little facetious about this but it does go along with my quandary... but the aspect of moving is something I am willing to do. Which considering how I was two years ago, or even last year, is a big step for me.

So while I like the idea of Nashville, what I am really excited about is the fact that I am willing. I struggle with willingness and willfullness. For the last three years have all but dug my heels in and told the Lord what I was going to do...and He could like it or lump it. But slowly He has been chipping away the rough exterior and revealing a softer, more pliant, heart.

Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4

I am finding that the desires of my heart are changing, drastically. Yes, there are still some desires that are the same but some of the desires are changing in ways that I am excited about.

I have long thought that that verse meant what I wanted God would give me. That is not what this verse is about. It says Delight yourself in the Lord. I, um, skipped over that part and just went for the desires of my heart.

To delight myself in Him I have to be willing. Willing to be pliable and moldable, willing to do what He ask me to do.

Of course there are going to be days when I dig my heels in again and shake my head no and maybe even have a tantrum or two...but I do know that my heart, it is changing and those willful days are going to become fewer and fewer and I learn to delight in Him.

So while I am not moving to Nashville, I am willing to.

And who knows I may need a moving truck yet :)

His Beloved,

Comments

[Pete Wilson]

We'll be waiting for you!! Let us know if we can help.

[Kristen @ {dancing} in the margins]

In my excitement over what God is doing through you and going to do, I literally just spilled my cup of tea all over myself!!! LOL. I had to stop my comment, jump up, rip off my hot clothes, get dressed again and come back!

All this to say, girlfriend, God has planned something mighty for you. Your willingness is one step further to what He has. I AM PRAYING! (While on fire with tea!!)