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Friday, October 26, 2012

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kendal

somehow i missed this part of yoru story or read it so long ago i don't connect it with you anymore. so glad you shared. and this letting go? this not controling whatever "it" is? so hard. and so right.

Melanie Dorsey

"I can be controlling while I'm praying. I can take ownership of things that are not mine while I'm praying. I can ask God to do many things and yet still cling to my own agenda while I'm praying."

This part resonated with me very deeply. Different scenario: When I was praying, praying, pleading, pleading...(repeat over and again) for Andrew to be healed of cancer and live...it was EXHAUSTING. And somehow I couldn't explain to people how I felt I was about to have a nervous breakdown over praying so intently for my son.
Thanks for writing this.

Jen Ferguson

This is what the book is about, too. It helps to be writing about it -- it can be such an embarrassing thing. But I don't want women to feel as though they have to struggle alone.

Jen Ferguson

It's hard to really take in Jesus' words when faced with such brutal hardship -- "light and easy?" I'm learning that it is all about perspective shift -- not fighting against His Will but against the enemy who seeks to destroy me with the evil in this world.

HisFireFly

Been in the same struggle Jennifer and at times can still feel myself wanted to wrestle control right out of God's hands and into my own.

I have to daily surrender my husband to His care trusting that He has ways much higher than mine and that His healing will far exceed anything I can imagine.

kd sullivan

I am so encouraged by the transparency here. I have been there friend. Manipulative in prayer. Even to the point where I thought I could control another's choices with prayer. You are strong and courageous and most importantly tender toward God. He is teaching you to pray, and that is a wonderful place to be!

Jen Ferguson

If you ever need to talk, please, let's do. It can be such a lonely struggle. My email is jenfergie2000@me.com

Jen Ferguson

It's crazy to think that we can do that in prayer, and yet, all the time, I try to manipulate outcomes my the words I speak to God. I treasure the fact that He loves us all to much to be manipulated by us!

Gaby

This "Oftentimes, I find myself praying to get something and I forget that there is much to give in prayer." I love. You're right: we pray to get but in praying we are pouring out control, worry, and pain. Jesus said "give" me your burdens and then you can "take" mine.

Beautiful, friend.

Lorimcspeaks

wow, Jen. I am so proud of you for sharing this. The thing that stood out to me was the obvious love you both share. The love and humility he must have in accepting your prayers, and the love and resolve you must have to continue in prayer. I think this is tearing more couples apart than anyone realizes. You being obedient in speaking light to darkness? Well, that is going to change lives, friend :)

r.elliott

How wonderful that you husband allows you to share this story...Lord bless him for allowing you to redeem where he fell to lift others up.
and yes...prayer...how it can be used as a tool of manipulation...when I saw this in myself...it was terrible...but praise be to God whose grace teaches us another way.
thanks for sharing...blessings to you and you husband~

Vicki

hi jen, while i read this i was hurting and getting exhausted with you. you are such a good wife. really. how much you love your husband. we kind of had this issue in our house some years back. while i was reading your post a book came to my mind and i didn't know if you had heard of it or not. it was an eye-popping-opener for me. my husband read it too and he says yes, that is exactly how it is and it's a daily struggle (the book is about how men think about the opposite sex, it's like getting into their brain). it really helped me to understand my husband and all men in general better. and i have boys too so i really will know what to expect as they get older. here is a link to the book site. thanks for writing about something so hard and personal. i love your transparency and you !

http://shaunti.com/BooksStudies/ForWomenOnly/tabid/137/Default.aspx

Jen Ferguson

Thank you, Gaby. Do you know? You are such an inspiration to me. Almost each week after I teach my class, I think of the guest post you wrote for me!

Jen Ferguson

It is one of my biggest prayers that God will use our story to bring people closer to Him. I desperately do not want women to feel alone and I dearly want men to find redemption and wholeness in Jesus.

Jen Ferguson

It's never easy to share, but since Craig and I are writing a book about it, we find it gets a little easier each time.

Jen Ferguson

I need to read that book! Jan Johnson donated it as a door prize for my class -- I'll have to see if the winner is done with it!

Jan Johnson

"I can be controlling while I'm praying

Wow, you're right, Jen! Isn't it frustrating how the human heart is so deceitful? And yet, our Lord knows how we are made, and He leads us to grow in trust. THANK YOU for this post!

Jen Ferguson

I am so thankful, everyday, for how He lets us grow in our ability to trust!

Kimby

This was a powerful guest post and one that has me evaluating my prayers. Thank you so much.

Susan Stilwell

Hi Jen,

I hopped over from your site to read the rest of the story. I didn't realize you and your husband were fighting this battle. What a great testimony of trust and total dependence on your Father to work on behalf. I can identify with the need to control, and I'm rejoicing in the strength you've found in Him.

Blessings to you and Craig, and continued prayers for deliverance.
Susan

Jen Ferguson

Thank you so much for reading, Kimby. Praying for us all to reach true surrender in our prayer lives.

Jen Ferguson

Susan, thank you so much for your prayers and your encouragement to me and my husband.

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